CAMELOT FANTASIES

Shot through the heart
Stabbed in the back
Fooling myself
I've been under attack
Those closest committed the worst crime
Being told I'm loved
Time after time
A cold chill running up and down
My spine
Shocking facts were always mine
Just wasn't looking
Confused beliefs that my
Friendships true
Mine was
Yours wasn't
Mourned what I believed
A part of me relieved
My gut has been feeling the betrayal
I dismissed it

You keep calling it a game
That you are true with me
Games played
Facts I see

I was the game

~Divine

Thunder cracking across the sky
Lightening flashing
Snippets of light
Illuminating the night
Every sound seemingly louder
Piqueing the imagination
To newest heights
Slight creak as though weight
Pressure with invisible footsteps
Nothing visible to the naked eye
Do you believe in ghosts?

~Divine

Black clouds as the air is thick
Intensity reaching to newer heights
Tension is real though
Close attention to the facial tick
Feelings are complex and surreal
Everything is playing like a broken record
All the sounds seem the same
Yet it skips
So many blips
Innocent smiles appear to tame
The beast that enrages within
Solace comes to those forgiving
Forget the strangeness in activity
That forges anonymity
Clarity is blurred
By the fuzzy haze
Of the smoking blaze

~Divine

You wrote some good poems there.

**** wide open
Emotions tearing down
All the walls erected high
Clear though into
Another dimension
Time heals all wounds
On the outside I'm smiling
On the inside I know better
You're pain free
Can't stop the sobbing
Crying helps the ease the pain
In my heart
Those who love you
Express such beautiful words
Like warm hugs
Sincere intensity

You shared you heart and home
Love for all living beings
Makes me recall the many years we had:

Rabbits
Pigeons
Fish
Patchy and her puppies
Budgies
Cockatiels

So much love
I know you and Dad are sharing
The love with everyone
Up above

Thank you and love you so!

~Divine

Uncanny as I'm choking back the tears
Innate sense that you've gone back home
Yet after all these years
I know our time here is on loan
I'm in a catatonic state
My soul understands that you're happy
I'm fighting with my inner demons
Strange to correlate
This sadness that has engulfed me
These last 48 hours I'm drowning
Confused at this egotistical ideal
Of needing to hold on
We've stopped the bleeding
The strength you've shown throughout
Your life
Through war
So many battles
You shine through
Our red headed
Blue eyed
Spartan Queen

Thank you

~Divine

Darkness

Shadows