CAMELOT FANTASIES

A Week ago
Death saturated my being
Where eyes were dry of tears
They didn't shine of life

Eyes were lifeless

I felt like the joker with a
Smeared red lipstick smile
Deadened eyes

Broken in shattered pieces

God lovingly took all those pieces
And mended my heart
For it to beat
As it did from this life's beginning
One of many starts

Catatonic inertia had me feeling numb
The darkness sucked me in
Unwittingly I had to succumb

Walking aimlessly to discover
There was no secrets
Tears streamed out in the open
Unashamed dispelling
Any notion of being undercover

Inability to climb out of the aphotic clutter
Gripping fear of death
Squeezed my beating heart
My whole body in an uncontrollable shudder

It was only a week ago
I look back at her
Someone I don't recognize
Someone I don't know

Seeped on me like a fog
Drowning me
Enveloped in darkness smog
Just knowing I was the living dead
Sucked in by the dark
I feared no other

~Divine