CAMELOT FANTASIES

I just joined twitter.


my twitter account is linked to my facebook.

so anything I say on twitter will be instantly displayed on my facebook page as well.


 

So what is your New Year resolution now that we are literally 3 days away from 2014? And also, what are your expectations?

I have set myself 5 goals so they are not necessarily 'resolutions'. Goals must be met, don't think resolutions work the same way. In any case, all my goals are a must do however, I haven't prioritized those. Mainly because they will take place in different parts of the year.

My exceptions are to meet all those goals I have set out for myself. No expectations from Andy. Anything he does will just be a bonus from this point on.

Looking back at 2013 now that it's almost behind us, I had a couple of downers - one lasted 2 days, and the second one lasted about 4/5 days. The first one had to do with Andy and his loss at USO. I took it hard. I remember after the match I went out to get some drinks and junk food, and it was a very beautiful bright sunny day and yet, I couldn't enjoy it and that made me even sadder. Couldn't believe for a moment or two that I cared so much - it just felt like a great loss. In the true sense however, I was okay with the loss so I let myself feel anyway I wanted to feel to deal with it, because I was still in control of my emotion.

In the second downer scenario, I was crushed. That happened actually very recently (nothing to do with forums or online or even relation stuff so don't get any ideas lol). I needed to nurture my spirit so I stayed home four straight days (took two days off following the weekend) without any direct communication to any other human being. It feels great to be that quiet and peaceful. I felt much better after those four days and was able to reconnect to the outer world again. But again, I was still in full control of my emotion as I knew this was a temporary situation. I just needed to deal with my emotion first that was constantly bringing me down. It needed specific and full attention. Once I gave it all that and nurtured it, it was fine - the little Me.

As to the highlight of the year, again Andy's win at Wimbledon first and foremost. Another highlight is the project I am currently working on. It caused me a lot of stress but it was well worth it.

I also held a couple of events to support United Way through work and raised a lot of money so that made me quite happy too.

I do feel 2014 will be just as stressful or maybe even more, but it will be well worth it, so I am preparing myself that way. I am not sure how much tennis I will actually be watching because of all the goals I have set for myself, but as long as I can be there for Andy during big matches, I should be happy. 2015 should really be the year of my freedom.

I also feel I am at a cross at this point of my life but I don't have any clear direction so I am unable to choose. I do think it will unfold as I move along and continue to make progress, so let's see. 

storming here on the coast today.


I am not at home at the moment Emma.


I will reply to your posts when I get home.


we are up to 54 and counting.


it is all looking good. we will remember this humble beginning one day.

rain finally starting to subside here.

it has been raining all day.

So what is your New Year resolution now that we are literally 3 days away from 2014? And also, what are your expectations?

I have set myself 5 goals so they are not necessarily 'resolutions'. Goals must be met, don't think resolutions work the same way. In any case, all my goals are a must do however, I haven't prioritized those. Mainly because they will take place in different parts of the year.

My exceptions are to meet all those goals I have set out for myself. No expectations from Andy. Anything he does will just be a bonus from this point on.

Looking back at 2013 now that it's almost behind us, I had a couple of downers - one lasted 2 days, and the second one lasted about 4/5 days. The first one had to do with Andy and his loss at USO. I took it hard. I remember after the match I went out to get some drinks and junk food, and it was a very beautiful bright sunny day and yet, I couldn't enjoy it and that made me even sadder. Couldn't believe for a moment or two that I cared so much - it just felt like a great loss. In the true sense however, I was okay with the loss so I let myself feel anyway I wanted to feel to deal with it, because I was still in control of my emotion.

In the second downer scenario, I was crushed. That happened actually very recently (nothing to do with forums or online or even relation stuff so don't get any ideas lol). I needed to nurture my spirit so I stayed home four straight days (took two days off following the weekend) without any direct communication to any other human being. It feels great to be that quiet and peaceful. I felt much better after those four days and was able to reconnect to the outer world again. But again, I was still in full control of my emotion as I knew this was a temporary situation. I just needed to deal with my emotion first that was constantly bringing me down. It needed specific and full attention. Once I gave it all that and nurtured it, it was fine - the little Me.

As to the highlight of the year, again Andy's win at Wimbledon first and foremost. Another highlight is the project I am currently working on. It caused me a lot of stress but it was well worth it.

I also held a couple of events to support United Way through work and raised a lot of money so that made me quite happy too.

I do feel 2014 will be just as stressful or maybe even more, but it will be well worth it, so I am preparing myself that way. I am not sure how much tennis I will actually be watching because of all the goals I have set for myself, but as long as I can be there for Andy during big matches, I should be happy. 2015 should really be the year of my freedom.

I also feel I am at a cross at this point of my life but I don't have any clear direction so I am unable to choose. I do think it will unfold as I move along and continue to make progress, so let's see.

that is a great post.



I am not sure what new resolutions I am going to come up with.  I guess my foremost resolution is no resolution at all:


be healthy and happy and help others be happy and healthy also as much as possible.

 

Has Nikki gone on traveling already? And where is Embla? I don't see her anymore. Perhaps she's out of town or something.