CAMELOT FANTASIES

I’m scared of isolation.
Bear with me as I bare my soul.
I’ll leave this up for interpretation.
I can never say that I felt whole.

I don’t believe that I’m looking for a person
Who could possibly come and fill that spot.
I’m not looking for another burden.
I don’t want a situation in which my feelings will get caught.

I’m scared of failing.
Quite frankly, I’m terrified of it all.
In constant fear; ailing.
Why reach for the stars if they too might fall?

I don’t know what I want to be.
I don’t even know who I am.
I’m expected to do things unseen
When I don’t even have a plan.

I’m scared of lonely.
I don’t my presence to be the only one I feel.
I don’t wanna play phoney.
Act the part until I feel that I can heal.

They tell the answers i’m looking for
Are the ones I have to find within myself.
I’m searching far and wide in my core,
But I still seek help.

I’m scared of rejection.
I find it easier to just not be around.
The girl in my reflection
Is the girl I lost and has yet to be found.

I never imagined having to feel these things.
To feel the need to hold back so many feelings.
I’m the quiet shell of a soul that wants to sing.
But to none are my songs appealing.

I’m scared of the world around me; society.
I once thought that I had it all in the bag.
There’s so much hate and all the ignored variety.