CAMELOT FANTASIES

A lot of things.

Recently I was diagnosed with aspergers.

I am also struggling to find a job. And I do not talk well with girls

In general I feel awful.

Very sorry to hear that you've been diagnosed with aspergers. My youngest brother who was a teenager at that time was diagnosed with this strange rare disease. While he looked alright on the outside, it was eating him alive on the inside. He suffered 7 long years and fought to no end to survive this, but couldn't fight anymore as there was no cure for it - not then or now. So after fighting that hard, he still died as a teenager. Since my mum died when I was 16 and he was 8, I took care of him and he was my baby brother. After he died, I went into shock and was very depressed for 5 years straight.  Couldn't do anything and had to drop out of school. So I understand but at least you can live with it and work around it. I wish he had lived even with a disease but lived. What I loved the most about him was the fact he'd never let himself get depressed even when his mum died at such a young age and even when he was constantly on the verge of dying and eventually died. That taught me many things including never to get depressed no matter what.