CAMELOT FANTASIES

Clay, I felt like saying things when I went kinda quiet but didn't want people to be sick of "hearing" me with their minds "ears" so to speak & didn't want anyone to think I was "up myself" thinking I was so good when I wasn't so to speak by having too much to say. Sometimes I thought that what I had to say wasn't relevant to what was being said & if I want to join in & have a laugh I have to ensure I either have something relevant to say or explain my ignorance in certain areas & ask questions. Niceties are important too. I hope that if anybody ever has a problem with me they'll tell me privately, euphemistically, diplomatically & tactfully like the civilised human beings we are. I can also be too conscientious for my own good at times. I know you offer everyone freedom but I always feel the necessity to answer them as soon as possible after they've asked me a question & feel guilty if I haven't & I know I regulate myself too strictly sometimes. I've also been working on those pieces I said I was doing.