With each one we have to say goodbye to, the venting is something necessary we need to do. It hurts worse to have in pain and pass away in your arms in pain. Not being able to do anything but luv them. So ok my dear too talk about it. it helps so bad. Just recently had to do the same but my dog wasn't that old. Ours had cushings, diabetes m, and a liver that was in decay. I understand your pain , your luv, your companionship all gone at the same time. I've thru so many times, if you need to talk I'm here for you. Luv you dear. Thank you for sharing your hurt.