CAMELOT FANTASIES

Trying to blame myself, but I can't shoulder this...
I stood beside you when the world closed in
I didn't flinch when things were the darkest
No more...
You want to be alone
You want to create a fantasy life where you feel powerful and invincible
It doesn't exist, but I'll let you chase it
Alone you will be
When you cry at night because there is no one there
Look in the mirror
My light will still shine, but it won't shine on you
The only light you will see is the harsh light of reality
Realizing that all the attention you get has to be paid for
Those women won't cherish the lines in your face, the dimples in your skin, your balding head
They will mask their disdain for you with their hands out for favors
You had someone who craved your touch, but you crave those who will shudder at the old man who wants to reclaim his youth.
I'll bask in who I am,  mindful that love and trust and commitment outlast youth and beauty, and are far more meaningful.
You will delude yourself for a while, but that harsh light will seek you out
Alone you want to be, alone you will be.