CAMELOT FANTASIES

Determination, diligence
Is what I saw
Running away is what I reciprocated with.
All the right things is what you did
Making the coldness in my chest melt.
Happiness, Affection
Is what I felt
With you by my side, and in my heart.
The heart that you thawed, and made your home.
I tried to make this home the best I could
But even the sun sets in paradise.
You came home fewer, my heart grew colder.
Every day was an agony
Reaching out was what I did.
But I lacked acknowledgement.
To this day, it is a mystery
As to why you up’ed and left my heart.
The heart you thawed and made your home.

You left me broken
Wasted away to skin and bones
Gaunt and fraught with fear
To what I held dear
You left
Not a word spoken
You claim to say that you loved me
Words are empty
You held in reverence another
I melted and touched your heart
Cupid came struck and pierced mine
Look closely
You can see the blood pouring
It's spilled all over the floor
Like a puddle
I wrack my brain continuously
Trying to fathom what you mean
You shattered and stomped
On my heart and soul
My emotions I fear will never be whole
You speak in forked tongues
Let's split hairs
If you dare
Make your presence known
Eye to eye and stare
Show me the man
The one who captured my virginal heart
And regurgitated a tortured soul
That wanders throughout these castle walls
Aimlessly
Tearless
For my eyes run dry
From all the tears I cried
Yearning for you
I curse you