CAMELOT FANTASIES

Frustrations of fear are real
Searing shocks shattering the balance
Trembling uncontrollably
Teeth clattering
The inability to stop the shaking
Further anguishes the panic
That has overwhelmed
Hearts beating raised its rhythm
And skipped many a beat
Asphyxiation increasing
Gasping for air
From this humid heat
Unbearable as the panic
Continues to rise
A small piece trying to ease the strain
Having had better control
This time around
Feeling the pressure of my heart
Is the bigger surprise
Pain intensifies
Hearing sounds as though I’m underwater
An echo plays sharply
Hard to decipher
What’s real
What’s fear
What’s been absorbed by external energies
That I’ve made it my own

Numbness is hitting My extremities
Thoughts are confusing
Sharp stinging in my eyes
As my own tears are traitors
Far from soothing
Stinging and sharp burning sensation
Dissolving into a heap
Of no relief

Mind keeps chugging the over thinking train
No matter how hard I try
It’s all in vain
Clutching to the pillow
In hopes that all will normalize
Again
Valiantly trying
Sleep over takes the final fatigue

~Divine