CAMELOT FANTASIES

Hard, it's so hard
To watch you degenerate
Deteriorating
Youre dragging your 'Good' leg
Moaning with intense pain
Regarding the imperceptible strain
Written all over your face
Memories flooding as I hold your hand
To that time and place
When I was only four
You helped me with a handstand
That lead to a new dance
That made me soar
Hard, it's so hard
To watch you failing
Your words inaudible
Slurring and garbled
Moaning is your loud new audible
Sound
Hard, it's so hard
Your strengths are now your weaknesses
In the last few hours to watch you fall to the ground
Hearing you scream in fear
Watching your eyes tear
Pleading
Your eyes speaking
Begging me to find answers
It's hard, so hard
My once healthy beautiful mother
Our roles reversed
I am your care giver
My heart breaks each time I hear her
Cry
Praying to God
To take her and Why?

~ Divine