CAMELOT FANTASIES

Sometimes
I sit and wonder
Why I have this intense desire
For self sabotage
Catastrophic

Other times
I'm kicking up a storm
Every minute of the day
Is filled to the rim
Overwhelmed
Don't know where to begin

Space & time
Meditation brings me illumination
Varied forms work for me
Exercise or sitting still
Either way it's better than
Any pill

Anytime
When lightning strikes
Fascination with inspiration
That single spark
Pulls me out of that
Drowning dark
To my form of configuration
Freedom
To write

Self imposed chains
Compounded by gibberish
By people who claim to love me
But fear that change
In me
Will be the death
Of them

They are right
I have no desire to fight
Damned if I do
Damned if I don't
What they want
I won't


~Divine