CAMELOT FANTASIES

I've **** from the strain
Need to express my emotions
My throat is raw from the pain
Choking back the scream
Evolving into a different commotion
The nightmare is real
This damned despondent dream
I'm bound by the need to feel
Agitated in confusion
Suspended in the haze of the fog
Every which way nothing but distortion
Debating is my need for nicotine
That addictive smoke smog
In actuality the need to breathe
Deep breathes & blow them out
Releases the anger
That slow built up seethe
Ultimately leads to a great scream & shout
It's stepping over that fine line
Between safety and danger
No more pushing my feelings down
Or my fake smiles
Make everyone laugh & feel great
As I perform like the clown
Fermenting & incensed disliking the hate
Needing to realize
My need to crawl in break out the nebulous
Releasing all of the lies
As they claim is truth
Incredulous

It's late
All I can manage
Is to crawl into bed
Hug my legs against my chest
Scrunching the pillow beneath my head
In  Hopes that slumber is best
As fatigue sets in
Sleepin

~Divine