CAMELOT FANTASIES

It's hard to say good bye
Clinging to a fallen friendship
Where I am the one who always
Works at the relationship
It is so hard
Observing how I receive lip service
Continually
Fervently hoping you mean what you say
Where you've told me
To trust you
It's hard to admit
I am wrong
For I'm not throwing away
Anything that you haven't done so already
It's hard to permit
Under the guise of friendship
Remaining a secret
I won't be a source of embarrassment
Many other factors are
Under false development
Recognizing that I wanted this
More than you did
I messed it up
Working hard to make it happen
Futile in ways morbid
It's so hard
To say good bye
Breaks my heart
Parts of me will die
Realization that your words
Will only tear me apart
Though the ache is felt
I've no more tears to cry
It's hard
But the time has come

Good bye

~Divine