CAMELOT FANTASIES

Echoing silence
Feels like the throbbing of
The beating of the hearts
Once you pay close attention
Sound waves stream
In and out
Everything in quiet
Appears to echo louder
Hearts beats are more succinct
It’s lulling me into
A deeper meditation
Promises I’ve kept
For a more introspective. Year
Connecting to my souls purpose
The edit button is for my use alone

Looking back
I’ve allowed family, friends and lovers
In my aim to please
I would let them hover over
My decisions

I wanted them happy
Eating away at who I was
Each fraction was due to
Who I thought from love
Meant to please to the enth degree

Many heart breaks later
Disappointments from expectations
Where I naively believed
That I would be treated with the same
Unconditional love and kindness

Lessons learned

Striking difference
In my own independence
I always seemed to follow the norm
And then just before
Any huge event
Marriage
Children
Homes

My direction veered differently
Much consternation from the audience

I realize I was never the norm
Not in my looks
My beliefs
My love of God
And the Divine White Entourage

Trusting my intuitiveness
One of the greatest gifts procured from God
Welcoming it with open arms
Has been full of trials and tribulations

They are mine
Trusting to follow my gut instinct
In all relationships
Makes for better communication

When I deny
I get my butt kicked
When I accept
It’s revealing
And allows me growth

I’m grateful for all my gifts
They keep multiplying

We’re all lucky that way
Once we let go our persistence
The resistance
Slips away
Ready for a new day

~Divine