CAMELOT FANTASIES

Watching You’ve Got Mail.

Turning point in many lives involved in the story.
Lives entwined, whilst sending archaic emails on dial up.
We’re coming into 5G networks.
Wow.

Then chance meetings with people you write to and have not met.
Even in the same city.
Twitter or any social media where we hide behind avatars that do not show our selves.

Mixed emotions come bubbling up as it’s Christmas Eve.
2020 has been so difficult
2020 has also been new beginnings for me

Maybe it’s time to take a plunge. Let’s see

Endings are inevitable.
Transmutation is inevitable
I desire this.


Pushed into a difficult position.
Do I still strive
Or do I surrender.

All relationships are being questioned.
Didn’t realize mine with My Father would be
Yet I’ve asked forgiveness.
Grateful for so many things.
Tears have spilled forth effortlessly these last few nights.
Strange. My silence has not triggered anything in those close.

Relationships.....change. All the time.
I do too.

~Divine