CAMELOT FANTASIES

This is not something I want to get it out of my system in the same sense but sometimes I wish though that I was in some kind of Service oriented job - like a social worker or even a nurse (not a doctor) where I am directly in contact with someone who needs help. But all I do is help my company make more money. Though I am very grateful for my job and I do love it, and my sincerity is never in question, but it still doesn't give me that satisfaction when I help someone directly.

But what is great about our company is that, it does allow people to pursue their dreams in some way. For example, I just finished our Holiday Hamper with the help of a few others. We adopted a family of 5 (mother and 4 young children) and we held a couple of events to raise enough money to buy them almost everything on their wishlist. At first, we had to go with the most basic needs first but then Ryan (the 8 year old) wanted an electronic Reader and I just couldn't find enough money to buy one, but in the end luck opened up and I was able to buy one for him, so that made me very happy. Otherwise I was going to buy one for him. I did contribute some money and some CDs, DVDs etc.

Also, I held another charity project called "Coin Wars" in the middle of this year and we were able to raise more money than we'd expected. All went to United Way. I do this all in my spare time albeit through work and some other charity work so I am at least grateful that I can contribute to humanity in a small way though I'd like to do much, much more to be honest. Maybe my life will take a turning point at some point who knows really.

Your story exactly mirrors mine. I had a decent job, making good money, but I felt so unfulfilled. Like you, I wanted to felt that my presence was making a difference. I was used to working with deadlines and high pressure positions and in my last job at the company I could do my work in less than two hours.

My boss didn't come in until the afternoon and most of the day was spent twiddling my thumbs. I had to go. I stayed at home for a couple of years pursuing some creative things I had wanted to do all my life.

When I went back to work I worked in the Public School system. I loved it, although the money was a fraction of my previous salary.

Now, I am going back to school and when I re-enter the work force it will be for something to do with children, in an educational way, but not as a teacher.