CAMELOT FANTASIES

I was wondering if there's a way to avoid all this because it seems like if she can do it once she'll probably do it again. One of my best friends sister is quite sick too. I am amazed how different they are in characters even when they were exposed to similar environments growing up, and yet I find her so rude, mean and extremely selfish. And her sister, my friend, is quite the opposite.

It's almost never the gene (which mostly makes the protein btw) and it's almost never the environment, but something far beyond - something that is still not within our knowledge. You just have to wonder why some people haven't evolved as much as others and as the bigger questions. But I am also aware of people who looked and acted perfectly normal and yet, they were found as the worst killers in human history. They simply acted to have the archetype values like love, truth, justice, empathy, beauty, innocence etc. but in truth, they had none of these qualities. What they had instead was absolutely and utterly quite the opposite. These are even bigger mysteries out there.

For example, I was watching a documentary on Dennis Rader, otherwise known as the BTK killer (bound, torture and kill, he used this as his signature), and I found out as usual growing up he used to torture animals before killing them (this had led me to ask question to children, 'do you love animals' because I believe it's fundamental in identifying a disturbing character and take necessary actions from early on if possible). And he continued to do that once he grew up but this time, he went one step further and made human beings his main target.

Now if you read his bio on wiki, you will see this, "Rader was a member of Christ Lutheran Church and had been elected president of the Congregation Council. He was also a Cub Scout leader. On July 26, 2005, after Rader's arrest, Sedgwick County District Judge Eric Yost waived the usual 60-day waiting period and granted an immediate divorce for his wife, agreeing that her mental health was in danger. Rader did not contest the divorce, and the 34-year marriage was ended. Paula Rader said in her divorce petition that her mental and physical condition has been adversely affected by the marriage."

What I found amusing is that, despite killing at least 10 people he had a 34 year long marriage and his wife only mentioned how much she was affected by the marriage after Rader got caught. Surely she should have noticed some of the disturbing behaviour much before?  Perhaps she was in denial.

But anyway, what really amuses me is that, there are some people like Rader among us (perhaps not all are so extreme but disturbing enough to cause endless trouble) and we do notice them but unfortunately not to the point it should be noted. Even online you will come off repeated offenders otherwise known as posters, but there's something very disturbing about them if you pay attention.

Interesting post, Emma, full of good things.

This is the way that I see it. In reading the bible it talks about generational curses. Curses that are passed down through the genes. The bible says that the sins of the father will be visited upon the third or fourth generation, until someone breaks the curse. This is why things tend to recur over and over in families.

As I have been contemplating my sister's actions it occurred to me that she is just like my aunt. My aunt hated my mother and took every opportunity she could to put her down. Even after my mother's death she would bad talk her. It was crazy. They were polar opposites. My aunt was short, fat, and dark-skinned. My mother was tall, thin and shapely, and fair of skin. Mind you neither had any control over their physical attributes, but my aunt didn't see it like that. She magnified every "sin" of my mother's to epic proportions and she died with that hatred inside of her.

My sister is the same way. There is nothing I can do to be in her good graces, and I have accepted that. However, she takes things to a more destructive level and when asked her only response to why she acts as she does has been because I read a lot growing up, and my older sister styled my hair in cute hairstyles while she had to wear braids.

I called the bank to stop DirecTv, but that ordeal is over, finally. So, I will closely monitor my accounts and if I see suspicious activity I will go through the necessary procedures of changing all of my accounts to stop her from wreaking havoc and bringing me to financial ruin.

The sad thing is that if it in within power, she would do it.

But, I am not concerned with her or her actions because in all of our exchanges I have always triumphed over her evil. And all of the evil that she has visited upon me, has seen me rising above it and coming out better in the end.

That's what God has done for me. He has revealed all of her actions and blessed me beyond belief. It kills her that she cannot bring me down.

And I will continue to pray for her that she can leave the miserable existence that she has chosen to wallow in.