Author Topic: 🖤Dark Musings (Read 91541 times)

Divine Metamorphoses · « **Reply #120 on:** July 21, 2017, 08:27:11 pm »

I cried uncontrollably the night you died
Didn't want to see you suffer
The struggle for you to be revived
Code blue was the repeated line
Each time you returned
They tried to keep you alive
Deep in my heart
I knew your wish was to go to the other side
Your desire to die in your home
Was as strong as your hold
Please understand a part of me believed
There was a different way
For it to unfold
Moments pass and I still cry a tear
Knowing how you held on out of fear
Particularly this past year

Sigh

You've visited me grateful for your presence
I feel your happiness
A part of me craves to be with you
In your idyllic heaven so true
Always know I love you too!

~Divine

Divine Metamorphoses · « **Reply #121 on:** July 21, 2017, 11:07:59 pm »

Numb
Have been crying this horrendous day
Confusion has eroded my brain
Shattering all I thought was real
To teeny tiny pieces
Since it's broken
There is no way to put it all together
Being the responsible one sucks
It **** sucks
Frustration that drowned me in the ink
Black dark
I'm drowning in everyone's cesspool
Grime is sticking to me
Like clothing glued on a hot humid night
As the air conditioner breaks down
There is no relief
None
Not caring whether I live or die
Unknown as to the tears that
Has smudged all my make up
The ache in my chest makes it hard to breathe
Gasping for air catatonic without a care
At this point reality has set in
Anything goes

~Divine

Divine Metamorphoses · « **Reply #122 on:** July 21, 2017, 11:20:02 pm »

Soothingly rocking back + forth
To ease the **** organ
That barely resembles a heart
Tonight I'm hurting
Tears have been cascading all day
I'm dead inside
Walking aimlessly through the streets
Every day this summer it's rained
Today when I craved it the most
The sun is shining brightly
Evidentiary proof written all over my face
I'm the outsider again
I don't fit in
I never have
My face is screwy as I'm crying
A car almost hit me
I'm not even trying
I'm dead inside
Shrivelled up and died
All bent up and out of shape
Continually cried
I'm dead inside

~Divine

Divine Metamorphoses · « **Reply #123 on:** July 21, 2017, 11:25:26 pm »

Grotesque monstrous faces
Evolved in my dreams
To make them nightmares
Anxious not to sleep
For their maniacal expressions
Have a complex effect on me
One I don't want to look
The other I'm drawn to the fear
Drawn to evil of it
I am so very tired
Tired of this stupid thing we call life
It's unravelled insuch a way
I can hear them talk
Promises made have been broken
I care not what they have to say
There is a pain in my body
Not sure why the aches jump
From place to place
Strange to look at people's faces vacantly
They don't know how to take me
Deep down
I don't really care
Let them all stare

~Divine

Divine Metamorphoses · « **Reply #124 on:** July 21, 2017, 11:32:40 pm »

I feel you
Staring at me
From up in the sky

I hear you
Whispering
Inside my head
Telling me it's alright
That I don't need to cry

I know you
Are giving snippets
Of information
That I need to decipher

I want to
Pay attention
To all the nuances
Make the movies in my head
Make sense

I fear me
I'm at a place
Where fear has lost its hold on me
I don't really care

Breathing has been such a task
Tired of wearing this smiling mask
I've bumped into things
Confused that these feelings sting

A part of me is sad
Looking at it all unravel
I'm done
Finished

~Divine

Divine Metamorphoses · « **Reply #125 on:** July 21, 2017, 11:40:49 pm »

King AUR✝Hur · « **Reply #126 on:** July 22, 2017, 12:44:33 am »

Quote from: Divine Metamorphoses on July 21, 2017, 11:20:02 pm

Soothingly rocking back + forth
To ease the **** organ
That barely resembles a heart
Tonight I'm hurting
Tears have been cascading all day
I'm dead inside
Walking aimlessly through the streets
Every day this summer it's rained
Today when I craved it the most
The sun is shining brightly
Evidentiary proof written all over my face
I'm the outsider again
I don't fit in
I never have
My face is screwy as I'm crying
A car almost hit me
I'm not even trying
I'm dead inside
Shrivelled up and died
All bent up and out of shape
Continually cried
I'm dead inside

~Divine

Lean on me

Please so many time u did 4 self now I AM HER3 4 THEE

Time U see

This pain can transform to things i wont say here free

But i am ALLways here for u

Hugs to U too

Lean on my shoulder n 13t it all out

13T m3 show U how WONDERFULL a Woman U r about

Without

Any doubt

1ov3 n L1ght

Ka Sight [ Guests cannot view attachments ]

King AUR✝Hur · « **Reply #127 on:** July 22, 2017, 12:55:45 am »

carry ON wayward Sistren

I know pain now n then

I feel the darkness they embrace

I have seen sammael the fallens GoOD n (d) evil face

He know exactly who n when

13T m3 help U again

P13ase

I ask humbly to thee with ease

I can more than appease

I dont care i will pay any fees

I want to catch dry ur tears

On MY shoulder 4 years

I will show u y there is no f34r

U know who steers

Crystal C13ar

I adore u dear

🇽❌X 💖🇽❌x
1Ov3 n 🇱ight
Ka hugs Queen Divine [ Guests cannot view attachments ] tight

Divine Metamorphoses · « **Reply #128 on:** July 23, 2017, 01:31:16 am »

Quote from: King AUR✝Hur on July 22, 2017, 12:55:45 am

carry ON wayward Sistren

I know pain now n then

I feel the darkness they embrace

I have seen sammael the fallens GoOD n (d) evil face

He know exactly who n when

13T m3 help U again

P13ase

I ask humbly to thee with ease

I can more than appease

I dont care i will pay any fees

I want to catch dry ur tears

On MY shoulder 4 years

I will show u y there is no f34r

U know who steers

Crystal C13ar

I adore u dear

🇽❌X 💖🇽❌x
1Ov3 n 🇱ight
Ka hugs Queen Divine (Attachment Link) tight

Thank you Brother KA Law Rents
You have been constant in your kind support
I acknowledge your offer
Love and light
~Divine

Divine Metamorphoses · « **Reply #129 on:** July 23, 2017, 01:44:52 am »

Tempestuous are the demons who are raging at the
The bars
Straining grasping at the clutches
Of each souls developed scars
Each pound of flesh
Out weighs the other in mass
Wounds have contorted the body grotesquely
They ground their claws causing intense trauma
Smile is forced askew from bloated mess
Eyes are the window to the soul
Look closely not even the smile can hide
The solid fact that death
Took hold even for the 24 hours
Staring back in the mirrored glass
Eyes are dead
Staring at the picture with failing dread

~Divine

Divine Metamorphoses · « **Reply #130 on:** July 23, 2017, 02:14:15 am »

Through all her tears
Gasping for air
Evidence screwed up how she appears
Deep down she stopped to care
Dead inside
Each lively piece that loved to dance
Has died
They battled her to the point of extinction
Now the choice is hers
Will she live
Will she die
One more year
Or maybe five

~Divine

Divine Metamorphoses · « **Reply #131 on:** July 23, 2017, 02:18:23 am »

Claws are squeezing out the life in her
Once agile figure
Her knees bruised black + blue
Her legs are strangely disfigured
Each wisp of hair
Seemed beautifully coifed
Today it's strands look dead + fragile
Ghosts of the past live in her eyes
Judging by everyone's lies
Circumvent to realize
She buried her head in the sand
Truth were blatantly
Crashed through her fabricated disguise
She is dead

~Divine

Divine Metamorphoses · « **Reply #132 on:** July 23, 2017, 02:23:11 am »

Rocking back + forth for comfort
To ease this heavy pain
That has strained the heart
Starkness is coldly plain
Loveless from the cold starkness
She's welcoming the harshness
That has stabbed her intermittently
Over time she has broken
Each piece
Alas Dorian grey painted all his scars
Perhaps she should paint her canvass
Take every speck out of her eyes
Throw them up toward the stars
Lifeless is now set
No need to want to bet
Tired by the extreme to compensate
Satiate everyone's bet
Time to roll the dice

~Divine

Divine Metamorphoses · « **Reply #133 on:** July 23, 2017, 02:31:17 am »

Rain has been a constant reminder
Of all the tears that combined
Each + every strain
Tired of all the blunder
Of responsibility
To each his own
From young to grown
Each strand is frayed
It's bound to break
I see the hatred in their eyes
Blatant is their clear despise
Each plunge that made the stake
Go deeper
Each one harsher
Absorbed the hatred
It's been a keeper
Hearts been broken for some time
Youthful chatter paid the crime
Break the chains bolted in place
Stark reality
Numbness has crept
Death in the eyes
Cannot be faced
Barrage of lies has broken her armour
Wishing One and all
A lovers ardour
Without it
We will will surely die
A slower death
Slow
Aching
Horrible
Death

~Divine

Divine Metamorphoses · « **Reply #134 on:** July 23, 2017, 02:40:33 am »

Reality stared her in the eyes
She broke the mask
Every smiling disguise
Blow after blow she let them throw
Punch after punch
She thought it would help her grow
Shattered are her dreams
Battered is her soul
Louder is her screams
Demons have been grabbing her whole
Death becomes her
Death in all its glory
Shadows around her
What does she choose
To live or die
Only she will decide
Don't be fazed when she says she doesn't care
If she didn't
Why does she cry

~Divine

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